I hate the game Never Have I Ever.
I always win.
Which, is losing really,
Because there isn’t much interesting about the girl who’s done nothing.
It’s isolating and humiliating and -
It’s just a game.
Never have I ever had sex.
Never have I ever been kissed.
Never have I ever held hands.
Never have I ever been in love.
In fact, the closest thing I ever got to love was an awkward slow dance in 8th grade where I made more eye contact with my friend dancing next to me than the boy I was dancing with.
And I know it’s just a game, but the game ends,
And people look at me,
They say, “Don’t worry, it will happen for you!”
They say, “But you’re so beautiful, someone will love you!”
But I don’t need encouragement from strangers.
I don’t need false promises of future romances.
I don’t need pity compliments or your exaggerated second syllables-
“But you’re so beauuutiful!”
I never thought I wasn’t.